Trying So Hard

I have had a lot on my mind in the past few weeks with so much going on in my life and trying to do all I can to live for my Lord and Savior. I have been wondering what is God going to do with my life and how can I be used most effectively. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing what God wants me to be doing. My Pastor, John Werhas reminds us that I don’t make up the plans of my life then tell God to follow me. But I am to do the will of God and follow Him. I think I know what the will of God is for me but why do I seem to flounder at times?

There are some key areas in my life that I KNOW I need to stay focused on and those things are obeying, praying and and keeping in fellowship with my Lord and Savior, loving my wife and trying to be the best husband I can, training my children in the ways of the Lord and serving the body of Christ. It sounds so simple but why is it so hard sometimes? I think I have an answer and it always goes back to ME. Why oh why does my will get in the way of these things?

Trying so hard on my own strengths, on my own desires, on my own ideas. I think of the new Casting Crowns song Altar and the Door and I probably need to apply this more to my life, it goes like this:

I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

I am trying so hard but let “I” stop trying so hard and let Jesus be who He is in me. I know I have huge responsibility to keep running the race and I need to do my part. There is so much to learn and I thank God for His Love Letter to us all. Lord please help me to be sold out completely for you. Help me Lord to deny myself and pick up my cross.

Jesus Said in Matthew 11:28
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Jesus Let me find rest in You.

All praise, all worship, all glory, all honor, go to the King of kings and Lord of lords, Jesus Christ.

Wes
Galatians 2:20